right off the bat, gonna say, i'm sorry if you're expecting a baseball blog. this isn't it. not today, today i need to get some things off my chest and this is the only place i have to do it and feel safe and hopefully get some feedback.
it's about a girl, then again, when is it not. so again, if you don't want to hear about my emotional problems. one more chance to leave.
in honour of twiiter, i will refer to her as oomf. any one, i dated oomf for 6 months ( ya not a long time) and she recently told me that because of where her career is taking her ( she's an orchestral Oboist) she didn't feel it would be fair to me or her to continue dating, as she didn't want to hurt me by traveling or spending so long practicing. Needless to say ( god i hate when ppl say that, oh well) i was, and still am, somewhat heartbroken over this. I realize that its selfish of me to say that i don't want her to go, to succeed and be happy. i don't want to ruin her dreams. but at the same time, i so badly want to tell her that i still love her and would do anything to stay with her. ya, i'd probably stop playing baseball for her. if thats what it took. we still talk some, and we're trying to stay friends, but she told me today that after this year of school she's going to toronto (which is a 27 hour drive, or a 2 hour plane trip) to pursue another style of music. this is what brought upon this rant/ confession or whatever you may call it.
I'm so confused and stressed over this. i don't want to say anything to hurt our friendship, or possibly affect her music career, but i also need to get what i'm saying to all of you into some form that i can tell her.
if you have read this all, thank you, i wouldn't really expect it from you, but if you have any insight, some fresh eyes/ ideas would be much appreciated.
Lets be friends